...keep me home. i asked myself why do i need to stay away, far away from my friends and much further away from the life that i have grown and learn to love. but there, right there when i said it, when the words left my mouth, when my heart picked and utterd the word love, i knew that i had to go. as the word echoed in my head, it created ripples that made my entire being shake almost uncontrollably. it shook me to the core. how can i say its love when it only talked about me. what i want and what i need! what i would risk to get what i want. and what i wouldnt do to keep that which i need. inside i breakdown. inside everything crumbled.
i will go. because time has changed me. amazingly, i have grown to understand and accept a definition of love that is not selfish. a few years back i would have fought the thought of going home. i would have made bold statements, immature statements, such as that which would surely hurt those that i seek to shower my affection with. unknowingly, i would have struck them deep. i would have delivered a blow that will leave scars that never heal.i would have clumpsily sold myself out in objection. good thing my eyes have been opened. but is should remember. I should always remember.
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