okay! now i need to find a decent enough wall to bump my head into. lets see which is harder??? i knew it. i knew it. when i came to the realization that i will eventually live out my dad's warning and it coming true, i dreaded it. and now i has come. i can just hear the "i told you so..." wah! this is so tormenting.
so i was surfing the net as usual and i chanced upon young and emerging talents. now i am negotiating if id call them talents or not. for the most of how their pages look, it seems like they are accomplished. id say they aren't, but thats me sour-graping.
what kills me, is that they are doing what i wanna do. its not just the youth or the fact that they are actually where id wanna be (this is me whining...) but they look happy and fulfilled. having just said that makes me sound unhappy. (note to self) don't get me wrong i am happy with what i am doing its just that i am sorry i lost all that time. i am now coming to terms with the fact that i did lose so much opportunities. blah blah...
gotta shake the negative vibes off. i still have time. actually that is what ill reclaim. time. tomorrow will be a brand new day. i will live it out and squeeze every creative second out of it. prepare world i am waking up with a vengeance... ahahaha (evil laughter)
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