a few more days and i will be flying back home. that is if i dont decide to stay a little longer. but why should i? i never liked the US except for vacation purposes. i never did fancy living in a fast phased world. but thinking about my reasons i discovered few truths that striked me.
i asked myself why i dont want to stay? because there must be a good reason why. the more i did the more it dawned on me that i am againts it because i am afraid. SCARED. FRIGHTENED. i am afraid of going out of my comfort zone and into a place where i am as insignificant as the rest. life here in the states is demanding as much as it is rewarding if you have plunged yourself into it. if you buy in the philosophy that this society is presenting it might work for you. that is the truth that i am seing right now.
i have stayed away from the idea because i am not willing to change. i have again, as i wrote on my previous blog, opted to be contented with mediocrity. but as i have just realized growth requires change. i am open to that and i am anticipating the conflict which if i know myself that well will all be interpersonal.(talk about personal conflict.)
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